Hard Times

I've been having a little bit of a rough time thinking about the mission and about leaving. I feel like I'm in an awkward place, a place between being here and being in Argentina preaching the gospel. It's hard for me to focus on school (even though I'm doing just fine) and hard for me to think of leaving my family and my friends for 18 months. So much will change while I'm gone, and I know that there's nothing I can do about it. I'm worried about the future, about continuing school, a career, marriage (gasp), and all that stuff. I'm worried about best friend's weddings that I won't be to, birthdays, Christmas, etc. Everyone who knows me, knows that I am a planner. Before I decided to go on a mission, my life was planned thus so. But now, everything seems a little up in the air.

But I just now realized, that I am being so selfish. Do you see all that up there? It's all about me. Me, me, me. What about those lost souls in Argentina who are waiting for me to tell them about this wonderful truth? What about my Heavenly Father and His plan for me? What about changing, learning, growing, serving, and loving?

Luckily, I have a picture of my mission call on my computer:

"As you devote your time and attention to serving the Lord, leaving behind all other personal affairs, the Lord will bless you with increased knowledge and testimony of the Restoration and of the truths of the gospel of Jesus Christ." ...

"The Lord will reward you for the goodness of your life. Greater blessings and more happiness than you have yet experienced await you as you humbly and prayerfully serve the Lord in this labor of love among His children."

Oh yeah. It's all going to be okay. Even if I don't know it yet, God knows it. And that's all I need.